Monday, January 30, 2006
He Is In Hospital

forgot to run with the baby in my arms to see someone in the room upstairs, i ran too quickly, after the room of rails of new clothes where we spent a time, picking an orange and green baby grower made of wool in the darkness, spent time holding him in my arms, choosing a brightly coloured jumper, checked with the image of a smiling sun...In the next scene I ran up the stairs forgetting the newborn baby had followed me, saw his face as he fell, as i turned and i ran back down quickly see-ing him lie on the floor, and picked him up and held...and woke up...

My left arm had been aching for two days, kept holding it up in the air as was certain I was going to have a heartattack...In fact woke him up, as my heart turned for a second and told him I was gonna call an ambulance, kept phone by my bed just in case...it still ached on Sunday, I thought 'please I'm too young to die'...

Kept it off by relaxing in pub with a hamlet cigar, (because I did not inhale it, just held it in my mouth, tastes great havent smoked a cigar for years) and drank mulled wine, even though the 'mulled wine canister' wasn't working until I hit the button, and said 'STOP' (cause it was a red light)...woke up Sunday arm was fine...Finally saw the news Sunday night...

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